My name is Loren Glenn and I served in a few different missions between the ages of 19 and 22. I was called to serve first in Berlin Germany and was very excited and enthusiastic about going there. I had a great time preparing before I left and when I was in the MTC. When I got to Germany, I was hit with a kind of feeling that I never really experienced before. I was extremely sad and unable to function anything close to my normal self. I was tired and apathetic throughout most of the day, the world just seemed like a very dismal place to me. I was diagnosed with depression and tried medication before deciding it was time to go home and try to get better. My personal health and well being was in jeopardy and my family understood and were supportive of my decision. It was one of the hardest choices I've had to make but I knew after much prayer and searching that it was the right one for me.
After I got home, there were only a couple of people who treated me differently, I was lucky to come from a wonderful ward full of people who knew they were just as imperfect as I was and that coming home early didn't make me any less of a success in my life. Like I said, there were a few people who treated me in strange ways but I really didn't let that affect me. I had a personal relationship with my Heavenly Father and knew He loved me despite what others might say. In fact, it was hard not to judge those that were judging me. I knew they were in the wrong but understood that they just didn't have a full understanding of what missions are and how they aren't for everyone.
A few months went by and I received treatment. I decided it was time for me to think about going back. I started feeling normal again and I couldn't think of anything I would rather do with my life than finish my mission. It was a scary decision because I didn't know how I would react to going back out in the field but after praying about it I knew it was the right thing to do. I was assigned to a mini-mission in California, just outside my home stake and got back to work. I still had some negative feelings while working in that mission but felt confident that with the Lord's help I could make it.
When my mini-mission was over, (about 3 weeks) I was ready to go back out into the field and was called to the Minnesota Minneapolis Mission. It was the greatest experience of my life and I am so glad I went back out. My advice for any missionaries that had to come home early is that you are worth as much as anyone else, you don't have to complete a mission to be a tool in the Lord's hands. If you are able to overcome the things that held you back from finishing though, you should try and finish your mission, it is an amazing experience but it just isn't for everyone.