If any of you have come home for mental illnesses know that you are blessed beyond measures and he will be for you every step of the way but you have to put in the effort so he can heal you because he will. 3 Nephi 17:7- "Have ye any that are sick among you? Bring them hither. Have ye any that are lame, or blind, or halt, or maimed, or leprous, or that are withered, or that are deaf, or that are afflicted in any manner? Bring them hither and I will heal them, for I have compassion upon you; my bowels are filled with mercy." This scripture has given me comfort in knowing that he is there for us and that he wants to heal us.
Don't give up and know that whatever you do from here is part of his plan. Heavenly Father sometimes has a different plan than us but his plan is the best plan! I know that He is there for us and he loves us so much! I know that this church is true with all my heart and the Book of Mormon can answer all of our questions. Keep moving forward with faith. I have created a blog to help others dealing with mental illness and you can follow my story more and use some of the wonderful tools that God has created to help us be healed. Heisthereforyou.blogspot.com Jesus is the Christ and he can help you move forward and share your light with others.
It doesn't matter how long you served, you did what the Lord needed you to do! I served in the North Dakota Bismarck Mission for 8 months and it was the best time of my life. I have been struggling with anxiety my whole life and I got the prompting to go on a mission. I was scared to go because of the past experiences I have had in my life. When I was in the field I did really well until the last few months in which I had a lot of self doubt and was always down on myself. It got to the point of getting sick so it was time for me to go home. I was devastated because I loved every second of my mission and I loved the spirit that I felt. However I was slowly suffering on the inside and needed to get it fixed once and for all.
Coming home was possibly one of the hardest things I have done but one of the best experiences for my life. Since being home I have come to learn how to cope with the anxieties I have. My testimony has grown tremendously from coming home. I know that Heavenly Father sent me on my mission so I could figure this out once and for all. He has been there for me every single step of the way and I feel so blessed. I feel better than I have in years.